Tuesday, 1 May 2012

frustration

there are so many things to be frustrated at in life.
jantung berdebar-debar, hidung kembang kuncup keluar asap, peluh dingin menitis, urat dahi terkeluar, hormon adrenalin terekskresi secara berlebihan.
keranamu, frustration.

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sepanjang bulan kerja tak cukup napas. macam dengan lari tak cukup tanah. sorang-sorang kaver seluruh daerah. Expected to see patients, to attend meetings, to attend course, to give out CME, to run the NCDP 1 malaysia project, to write reports. semua kena buat.memangla multitasking, tapi ukur-ukurla keupayaan pekerja anda.

bila kerja tak cukup napas, mula la naik temperature. akhlak deficit. and its not nice at all.
bos pula jenis yang nak dengar benda bagus-bagus sahaja. segala kesulitan ditelan sendiri. colleagues uncontactable. keluhan dari staf bawahan kena entertain juga.

frustration at work.

bila buka newspaper, pepenuh berita tentang lawatan pemimpin besar ke sabah sarawak. almaklum, dekat PRU13. ada pula kenyataan dari sumber yang boleh dipercayai, bahawa pemimpin tidak menyangkakan keadaan jalan di sabah masih teruk. kepala yang kecil ni mula stat mempersoalkan banyak benda. sabah dan kuala lumpur, sama-sama malaysia. sama-sama merdeka, takde pulak baca dalam buku sejarah yang sabah sarawak ni merdeka 10 tahun kemudian. tapi kenapa pembangunan sabah sarawak memang 10 tahun terkebelakang? kuala lumpur ada puluhan mercu tanda, sedangkan sabah ni jalan huru hara, dan masih banyak tempat yang takde elektrik dan air. kata 1malaysia? dan kenapa pemimpin besar tak tahu keadaan sabah? adakah kerana pemimpin kecil tak repot dengan baik?

frustration at country.

pandang kanan, orang ni dah menulis di magazine. pandang kiri, orang ni dah terbitkan buku.baru-baru ni datang Dr H, timbalan presiden NGO kami. and he told me that he's writing in the 2nd edition of a brand new magazine JOM! and he thought that i ought to do so too...i smiled sheepishly, and said, insya allah... zaman bila la ntah. when i can't even maintain writing contantly in my poor webbing web.not to mention lacking of everything in writing. omo~~~

frustration at writing.

ramadhan bakal menjelang. mutabaah ibadah makin ketat mengikut piawaian bulatan quran. tapi amat sukar hatta untuk mencapai pencapaian minima. apabila frust, makin taktercapai, dan bila tak mencapai, makin frust. eeeeeevil cycle.

frustration at own mutabaah ibadah.

there are so many things to be frustrated in life.
the most frustrating part is, why is it so?
frustrating away like you have nobody to pray to?


4 comments:

Dinas Aldi said...

Because we're only human, dik. We know we have Him to pray to but we still succumb to the frustration..

Ohh alasan yg sangat lemah..(talking about me)..

Dr Azzad said...

samalah kita.jemu dgn kesibukan

sayatakpakaigucci said...

gambarou! apepun perjuangan perlu di teruskan..
Allah bersama2 org yg sabar =)

p/s : menuggu dgn sabar tulisan awak di JOM =D

Dinas Aldi said...

Salam Doc PK,
Akak nak ucapkan salam Aidilfitri & maaf zahir batin na. Take care :)